Do what you want.
If it’s terrible, never show anybody. If it reveals too much about you, save it to a folder called “inventory” so no one will ever look at it. Just don’t waste time worrying about what other people think when you’re alone.
If there’s nobody looking over your shoulder, the stakes for experimentation are very low.
Do what you want.
Don’t try and please your family and your friends. Don’t imagine a person who wouldn’t like what you’re doing. Please yourself. Make the thing that makes you happy.
There’s no law that says you have to show anyone your first draft or your second draft or any draft. You decide that.
If you never had to show anyone your work, what would you do?